Emotions...

I know i said im "back" and yet havent even updated really Its too tough lots is too tough these days keeping my emotions in check is insanely difficult maybe this just happens after you have a baby in general??? maybe its all stupid PTSD and I just need to figure this shit out maybe its cause we are moving and im a libra so thats hard no matter what? I dont know, but i do know i fight to not cry more now that i did when my lil man was in the NICU how does that make sense~??~~?