CD 61

Well here we are yet again LOL CD 61

Lots has been going on, and normally i disclose most of it to my tww buddy group however i do not want to be a debby downer and only have (-)Ve things to say to them, cause who likes that person right, so i decided to just talk about these things here on my own space and language LOL

So found out yesturday morning that one of my uncles Passed away at too young of a age and it just sucks, feels like im at the point where friends are getting married and having kids and family is dying off...:( im just glad hes not suffering anymore

Then DH is in the shower after we get home from a friends for a visit and he call me in cause "i have to talk to you" and tells me that one of his best friends wife is doing IVF for his friends brother (cause his friends brothers wife can not concieve) so this friend whos doing the IVF for them i feel so happy that a couple who is infertile will be getting their baby, but at the same time shes been preggers 2x and went for ivf on monday so now the wait begins, but apparently they get naked and shes preggers.. so im sure it will tsick... on one hand im so happy to see a infertile couple getting their baby, but also mean sihave to stick around to her preggers again, i mean i love the family, but so tough to see yet another person preggers around us... i think that has been playing on my mind, i dont want DH to be stuck with me and my irregular peridos, and possible infertile body, when shes had 2 kids just ran a half marathon and is now being a surrogate for someone else, i dont want to complain but i just want fuckin af to get here and start this over

ive beent aking high doses of vitamin c every day and no success... :( some ppl can create a abortion with this and i cant even get my fucking period it sucks im pissed and dont know what to do

dr is not supportive nor helpful at all he still wants it to play out till november and go from there, so if still no period by november (which i cant emotionally handle whatsoever at all...) im vcalling him on the first no questions asked... :(

Sorry for being down ladies, on iother notes im very happy and positive LOL even though you may not be ble to tell LOL