CD 71

Well CD 71 here... i cant believe it, it sucks lol

Last night i had the MOST vivid preggo dream i have ever had, with everyone in my life right now in it, DH and i had a beautiful baby boy who i had at home in our bath tub*never a thought to home birth lol due to my terrible back*

So i hope that dream means something, i may test tonight when i get home from work , beacuase as well today i had this flow of nausea come over me for about 45 mins, i was even literally sick at work lol not pretty to be pukin in a washroom with offices not far from where you are, but no one said antyning to me, so i hope all is well

I am ready for this cycle to either a. be over or b. to give us a freakin BFP lol

I look at ladies posting positive clear blue pee sticks and shake my head as their "positiaves" look like mine did oh so many days ago in this same cycle

I WANT TO BE PREGGERS lol or at least start a new cycle to figure out if iam ovulating or not and what to do from there

i have had bad cramping since last week all with NO spotting or anything, what appears to be EWCM but how could it be??? i mean that just confusses me... DH is readdy to for another cycle, always has baby brain on the mind which is so wonderful but at the same time, is no good cause it makes me feel the pressure

DRs apt in a week and 2 days so hopefully af almost isnt here yet to prove to him that my cycles are long and still hioping he can give me the script for provera to have a few on file too as repeats

thanks for reading heheh

mmd