My Job

THis is probably one thing you havent heard me talk too to much about It maybe because i am in a sense ashamed with myself that 5 yrs after graduating university i am not working in my field when for 3 of those years i was Its heart wrenching EVERY DAY i enter this place Its a great company, wonderful owners and great co-workers HOWEVER it is not what I am meant to do I am meant to work with Children/teens/adults with autism/downs/some sort of developmental delay And I know this I get scared that the longer I work here (just over 2 yrs now) That i will forget all the valuable info i know about working with such It scares me sad fact is i get paid way more money here than i would doing wha ti love and I HATE THAT it breaks my heart I miss my old company and feel that at times- my relationship messed that up- gotta LOVE small town living and working :S I loved where i was, and advanced wonderfully I was running my own Adult Day Program- then lost goverment funding and have been heart broken since I cant leave for a few hrs during the day to go to an interview= I would love to Bt i cant and again small town living makes jobs in my field few and FAR between as they are keeping the jobs until they retire Im hoping that on my year off with Lil Man i can find something BETTER Please please please