I remember once when DH and i got together, that he asked me how often i would like to "get it on" and i said preferably 4x a day... NO LIE... i loved sex, i loved every single exciting moment about it... I also enjoyed new partners (please do not look down at me or any differently LOL it was always safe and i have always been checked out by a DR lol)
So when we first got together, this was ok, we were intimate often enough to keep me satisfied, and DH never really had to "have it" which was ok for me... one of his best friends (whom i knew before) told him how "crazy" i was and that he would have loved to have gotten with me as he has a very high sex drive as well..
Well.. well now it has been 2 weeks and we havent "got it on" we attempted to last evening, however, this did not work so well.. DH could not perform. (now by all means i do not love him for his manly parts or anything like this) but its super duper hard for me... i mean i am sick of the oral (its great when it starts, but i want something else... i want more, and i want it now) I love my hubby to the moon and back, and by all means this is not going to be the end of us, or anything like this...) i hope this isnt tmi for any of my readers, but man i need to vent
I feel like its useless for us to TTC if we cant even "get it on" regularly with out thinking oh man this has to be it... he does have a DR apt on Feb 23rd 2011 which CAN NOT COME SOON ENOUGH that is for sure... however i do extremley miss a healthy sex life, where i have sex at LEAST once a day, ok i understand that THAT alone is asking for a lot, so is like 3 x a week enough... 3x a week of great sex, not one where i have to take what is given because at 30 he cant do anymore (whoa harsh line, did NOT mean for it to sound like that!) but it frusturates me that his frickin Mother thinks letting a 9 and 10 year old DRINK their FACES off is ok, and now at 30 he cant perform...
I just want a great sex life back, not one where we are both thinking will he last, will it even get up, will she like it, does he know i cant stand this?
And we are a newer couple, our sex life (IMO) should still be nothing short of AMAZING...
I guess the part that upsets me the most is that Fertility Friend gave me CH for Friday and yet we spent the whole weekend SEXLESS :( sure i may be whining, or need to get over myself, but how the eff are we supposed to have a baby if we cant have sex...
ANYONE who has been here, PLEASE HELP ME
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