The normal Bubbly Happy Go Lucky me... is slowly fading (on the inside) not so much on the outside to others (Which makes it even more difficult to explain as im not expressing it) I am lacking motivation at work, at home our Dry spell has gotten me Batty... we are trying to "get it on" but with having a FREAKIN POSITIVE opk and nO BD this has really hit me hard,, "wasted" another cycle and now i await my visit from AF and pray so hard that we will ovulate!!! :S
This video (i did see it on someone elses blog, perhaps Katie???) but its a good one...
I am struggling with this baby shower i am invited to where the Momma wants to.... DRINK...? only "a couple of glasses of wine and a few cigarrettes" ummm HELLO YOU ARE WITH CHILD, they do not know how much or when it will affect the baby so why the hell drink you selfish bitch! (sorry so harsh ladies)
But there is a Fetal Alchol Syndrome PSA on tv right now in our area, and it even got DH uproared yesterday thinking of this "friend" of ours, who does not know nor appreciate how lucky she is to be with child and wants to drink (i looked for a youtube vid of it, but no avail)
So im hurt,im struggling, i want to be a mommy, im loosing motivation at work, ha and no one knows the true internal feelings of Marly at the present :S
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