If never leaves

Its still really hard to be totally happy for ppl who fall pregnant right away... We just found out today that DH's cousin is expecting (well his wife) As i should be over the moon that we will have cousins who are so close in age- it still stings And i so dearly wish it didnt Maybe because it was them saying "oh i bet we will be the ones who have trouble" etc Or are the ones who are upset that it didnt work the first time But i just wish i could accept it and be stoked for them Im pregnant now- so be happy for everyone I feel terrible for feeling this way But its the honest truth- I wish i didnt feel like this- and yet i do... :S